I'll hug you last so I can hug you the longest.

Sitting by the kitchen window in towels and looking through tumblr with lappy on top of the washing machine.

Delicacy was good, I'm glad Alicia enjoyed it too! So long since I sneaked Sushi into the cinema. HAAAAAAA, yesterday was Attica, not Zirca, since I did weight training with Wiji (as my weight). Lol, ended up puking myself, puked in the cab, puked some more when I reached Wiji's area, puked another more back to Zirc, puked a bit more in the cab after Belicia got me my bag, Taxi uncle was so kind to stand at the lift and watch me get into my house, took a plastic bag and puked a bit more before bed.

LOL.

Thanks Jaslin for inviting me to Attica and Inquisitive for Zirca although I didn't manage to see you perform.

Meeting Iffah later, and hoping to have dinner with Stanly before he leaves tmr :(
I'm glad I did my tutorials and lectures so much earlier cause weekends 'll be times like these.
<3 

I'm counting down.
Internship at River Island's ending and um, there's still loads to complete (last week of logbook, thank you cards).
I've learnt a lot, caused I asked bloody lots of questions uh.
Thankfully both Maye and Mean Hui are patient enough to attend to me :D

I guess I'll have this Sunday to myself.
I need some time to get myself together before year 3 starts. 
So excited for school :D! New classmates, Gem module, new bunch of kids for muay thai.
Excited; did some mindmaps already 

:B

:( Too bad I'm gon be missing Noora's pool party and Saturday's gathering.

Sigh. Make the best out of each second lovelies!
Sweet dreams :)

It will come somehow.
I'm miserable that I lost it all.

I don't want anything now.
To have and to lose it, I'd rather not have it.

Preach something you can tattoo. I can't, I'm fickle. I change.

I wanna do things, I wanna get rid of things, I want things to slow down.
Why must the internship be the whole of 6 weeks (though I'm very much lucky to not have it 6 months)?

I miss you. What we used to be. The times we spent.
The messages I receive every morning, every night, how I got through things cause you were there to motivate me.
But it's okay. Time will heal, I'm sure it will.

Reputation; sometimes I wonder about its importance. If you do not know what's happening, go ahead, make assumptions and conclude in your mind. But do not share the false. You want to know what really is happening and why it is happening, ask. Ask the person of concern. Ask me. I'll be more than glad to explain my actions to you. Even if you don't accept the concept of things.

Sometimes, I wished I was back with Al. Haha, pros and cons of a relationship.
Sometimes, I wished I wasn't so approachable. But it's me, I like to help.
Too much at hand, I don't have the heart to reject.

I wonder who's Mother Theresa's bestfriend she shares all her trouble with.
Don't tell me it's God.

Today, or rather, these days, I just want to be alone, at home, till somebody comes over, shakes me up and clears my shit up altogether with me. I wished he/she could put all judgement aside and listen to my story. He/she will go all out to rid my procrastinated thoughts. I don't need any form of entertainment.

Maybe if I asked. Maybe if I let go of everything I fear, rejection. Maybe things will be better, or at least, I'll know the outcome.
But I don't think so. It'll never be the same and I'm to be blamed for that. 

I pity myself but I can't empathise with my situation. I need to hear from someone's who's been through all these shit. Then again, I want to be a fighter and get this through myself because that's being hardworking. 

ME.
Be selfish. 

HAHA! Hehrow~ :D How's yall been? I've been mugging so pardon this stressballgirl93 for not brogging ones lehz.

So, just as I was procrastibating 2 hours back, I was hopping around tumblrs and magazine sites (I have stuck to me new year's resolution of not puchasing mags! ;)! ), I stopped by SHAPE. Yes, SHAPE magazine's web. For the first time I clicked on the Sex and Love section and there was this 14 things men wished women knew and after reading, I thought those were ALSO, what women wished men knew! Maybe it applies to me only, donch know, since I'm manly? HAAAAAA :B

So there was this one that said, "Let me think I'm the FUNNIEST guy you know". Well, I hate accomodating laughs more than anything and I hate to keep the lamestshit joke I've in my head in my head. So most of the time I let it out no matter how awkward I know thing's gon be coming............... You'll never know if people actually comprehend until you let it out! :P. Fuck, the point is, I'd love to be seem as though I'm the funniest and the best chick to hang out with when you're with me! But fuck it again, be honest.

~(-3-)~ <----- My can't give 2 fucks face. TEEE.

Anyway, exams. Fucked up my Blaw, GBE's fine, 'm only at 2 chaps for FAM and haven't done a shit for QA.
& fuck, Cengage's closed. Cheebye~. Why can't they just let us have it until day of the paper????????????
Seriously~, we paid like fuckin' (checks textbook) $29.50 for the textbook and mostly the software since not everyone reads the textbook, let us have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FFUUU.

Glad Ben Cho's up for us on the 29th :)

Drake's Best I've Ever Had's lyric's real sweet and umm. I should be doing work now.




^ Look at this pretty lil thing. Lil' bits of visual feasting makes my day.
Thank you tumblr and pretty things. HAHA.
 

How do you see love logically and emotionally rationally?

Funny how I've got a distinction for Love and Relations and I still waver at the thought of Valentine's day. I'm glad society's less pressure on me since I'm a female in this life. I don't really need to take the "first step". I get to choose if I even want to take a step or not.

 {The rose is red, the violet's blue
The honey's sweet, and so are you
Thou are my love and I am thine
I drew thee to my Valentine
The lot was cast and then I drew
And Fortune said it shou'd be you.} 

Hah. I've been foolish all my life have I? Or should I say I was very easy-going. Whoever comes about, you'll never know, STEADY LAH! HAHA! But as I slowly mature, it's about the BAM! I assume I will feel. The "you know it's him" feeling. Will he be so perfect, like "it's him"? Seems impossible. 

Then again, it's funny how when people ask me what I want to be when I grow up, I simply want to be a wife. I want to love.

Somehow, maybe, I've become inclined to wanting to be independent because many days, most of them 86400 seconds a day, you make your own choices, deal with them consequences and fight them obstacles. In a relationship, we decide altogether and then at times when there's an uneasiness in communication, we start the blame game and the "should-have"s and the sarcasm due to assumptions then slowly I find myself just wanting to sink into your arms. Is this what's it's suppose to be?

What is "suppose to be" is something I cannot understand. We all have different morals, different definitions of what is just or not, what is tasteful, what isn't. Do I base my trust with everything we've done together? Am I expecting too much if that's actually enough?

I guess this is why most of the time I'm open with sharing anything and everything under the stars but only bring some friends to my place. No, I'm not ashamed of my state of living; ye, maybe it reflects my subconsciousness towards needing to lead a certain level of living, but mostly, it's e belongings in my room.

I feel extremely happy when someone invites my over to their home, to their room. It feels so special. It's like, having me scrutinize your flaws and just letting everything out there be what it is and not giving 2 fucks about it. HAHA. :) I think I like this feeling more than I like the thought of recovering from my throat inflammation now. & when I laugh about the something, I'm actually laughing bou how real it is and how I do it myself and seem to mind a little when I see somebody else do it; it's a tingly feeling I cannot explain it snuggles my heart. What bou my room that I feel awkward putting forth, is the quotes and doodles I paste on my wall to boost my self esteem. I really don't like to appear needy.

My Valentine Days likes I should keep in mind; maybe I just like the sight of -

I like paper bags :J
I like things pasted on walls.
I like childhood photos hung up anywhere. LOL.
I like perfumes. 
I like semi-buff guys with tatts. Hehheheh.
I like to look at beautiful women. No no no, I'm not lesbian. They're just very visually soothing.
I like babies. :B
I like,  chocolate chip cookies. But FUCK MY THROAT NOW WHY WHY WHY THE FLU AND THE COUGH AND THE PHLEGM AND THE OFF AND ON FEVER LET ME BE IMMUNE TO SICKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( 

I think I'm just quite hungry so I'm going to stop my crap here.
*flush~ * 

Yala whatever la I know I'm lame like that.
You able person.

LOL.

<3 Have a great Wednesday :)